Things are getting better. *I* am getting better as this progresses the curve is influx and getting back to the happiness that I know myself as. Levels adjust and are back to the horizon line evening out. Be at peace with now as well as the past and future. Realizing things done have to be exciting and changing all the time is helping tremendously.

Too much going on and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired of everything. It’s stagnant again and that exhausts me. I can change some things but it’s not possible with so. So what to do? That’s something that has to be sorted and carefully thought out. Want and need are not the same an even though something’s there sometimes it’s missing aspects that are still important. Im not a person to be stuck on survival mode everyday. THAT will not happen!

Phone calls in the morning make me think of what seems to be the inevitable. Then I look at him and see that I’m safe and we are possibly the exception. I know it sounds naive and unless you’re also in a good relationship you’re highly doubting this text. Realizing this is amazing, let’s sprout again. :)

Posting more about what I actually think or am going through in a non ambiguous way would happen more if people weren’t so judgmental. Just be… It’s a much better life to let things go and be happy. :)